Biting the Bucket with Ayahuasca

How does it feel to die and be resurrected — twice?

Illustration:

Jessica Siao

It wasn’t until I was vomiting neon snakes — again — in the middle of my second ceremony that I started to have real doubts about taking ayahuasca.

The evening before had been a mixed affair. I had lost control of reality almost immediately, spent an eternity staring into the abyss of my bucket…